Longing

I wanted to have a written piece attached to this project but was finding it really hard to write anything that felt authentic. Ultimately, I took it as a sign to let the story tell itself. More information on the project can be found at the end of the gallery.

This is a very raw and vulnerable project. It was a first for a lot of reasons. It was my first time as a subject in my own photography, my first time creating a narrative, my first fine arts project, and my first time being a step removed from naked in front of my two best friends.  

There was a time in my life when I was very vulnerable and seeing a very manipulative man. There was often a similar routine where he would insist I owed him sexual favours and when I would fight back, he would throw every possible guilt trip my way until I gave in. Often times, when he would be scolding me, I would dissociate and fantasize about how different this situation would be if I were dating my best friend (whom I was very in love with) instead. The juxtaposition of that imagery stuck with me, and after years of mulling over it, I finally got to illustrate it.

I want to give a big thank you to both B and Kay for trusting me enough to be a part of this, and for helping me make this painful era of my life into beautiful art that I can now admire. Their socials can be found below. (btw, B is a fellow artist and photographer, a very talented one at that)