A Song for Every Moon

I wonder if you think of me from time to time,

if you think of me the same way I think of you.

The taste of cigarettes, the roughness of your hands

The music you'd play me in the morning, the softness of your voice.

Cooking and dancing in the kitchen, 

the effort you made to show me your love despite my faults.

These are things I can find elsewhere, in other people,

but they'll never be the same as they are with you.

Pain is knowing you don't think of me from time to time.

Pain is knowing you don't think of me the same way I think of you.

Healing is not expecting you to.

Healing is finding joy in the happiness you're living now.

Reminiscing is going to our favourite spots, places that bring back memories.

Reminiscing is wishing I could leave the comfort of those memories

in the past so I can make room for new ones to bloom.

As much as I'd like to hear from you,

dialing your number would shatter my pride.

Letting you know I still think of you

is shame I'm not ready to face.

But there's no way I can forget about you,

it's as if you haunt my existence.

Maggie Rogers, Frank Sinatra,

Bookplate, Play it Again Sam's,

New Years, falling snow,

Pink Floyd t-shirts, even doing my eyebrows.

No matter how hard I try to forget you,

my mom will always ask if I've heard from you lately.

The truth is I'd be lying if I said

I wanted to forget you.

A bitter version of me wished we never met,

but the me I am today is glad our paths crossed.

The thinker in me uses those memories to create,

and the creative in me uses those memories as a muse.

The lover in me uses those memories to remember my worth.

Because, of all the reasons to have never met you,

teaching me the love I deserve is worth the heartache I faced.

For that, you will never leave the back of my mind.

For that, you will never leave the depths of my heart.

As crazy as it makes me feel, I've learned to live with you back there.

As stupid as it makes me feel, I've learned to love with you in there.

There's no denying you we're a major part of my life.

First love, first kiss, first times. 

Major milestones in my life were made with you by my side,

and I'm glad they were.

I hope you're doing well.

Know that I'm here whenever you want to talk.

I hope our memories live somewhere happy in your body.

Know that mine do.

I hope you're healing, growing, and learning.

Know that I have healed, grown, and learned.

I hope we see each other again.

Know that I will be ready to.